Deliverance

In a dream will you give your love to me
Take my hand and lead me
Save me from me
Until I finally see

Under each second
You’re passing away
The memory will soar
And won’t betray

I’m not running
I fear nothing at all
You can see me, you won’t hurt me
It’s craved in my soul
Never to regret that one thing I won’t forget
So stop pretending and don’t try understanding

Under my hate
You’ll always find yourself
Lost among the lies
And realize, it’s to late

There’s nothing else here
Nothing you can say
No fear no tear
I made my way

No further Grieve

Far across the distance
I hear your voice
I hear you calling me

You promised to stay
But now that you’re gone
You know I can’t forgive

I feel you all around me
I believe, I know
You never left me, never alone

I run into shadows
Not forgiving, not forgetting
But nothing can bring you back

I used to stand by myself
You were always there
Even though I didn’t see
You kept me always under your wing

Looking up, I see you smile
Shinning, guiding me
And under your wing
I pray to stay

Cut me open

I cannot stand this hideous life
Everything I recognize only disappears
My wish is for you to appear

Don’t let me fall
Save me from me
Don’t want to be alone
Please came back and see me…

Secretly vanishing
This thought of mine
My world is fading
Still can’t stop dreaming

I don’t know, I don’t care
That crack in my spirit
It’s hollow and dark
So there’s nothing there you can tare

Where has my heart gone
Lost among the sweetest lie
Even darkness avoids me
Don’t want to hear me cry

Fond angel that came from above
Show me light where I simply see night
And tell me
“I still have room for what you so call Love”

Cut me open
See what’s inside
Think before you decide

I close my eyes
Craving to be awaken somehow
I sense all this emptiness
All around me
Haunting me
Wanting me…

Vanishing Gardens of Happiness

Take me away where I can breathe again
Hold me high, win my pain
I can’t hold on to me
Wonder what’s wrong before I see

The words you speak
Have no meaning now
Sweet whispers from your voice
Haunts me and gives me no choice

I’m going to run away
I’m going to leave
All those whispers
Are no longer my believe

Broken wings will fly
Even though I cry these hollow tears
I won’t try to mistake my fears

All of my hate cannot be found
Still you come and pull me down
All the spirits have come to see
Your all alone now just you and me

Scream, they can’t hear
Bleed, trough your own fear
It’s just a dream of tonight
This follows no longer with light

So dark this night
Burning down with bright
Leading further into my emptiness
Ending across vanishing gardens of happiness

Give up the ghost

Lost within you, lost among you
The path you drawn
I walk it, fearless
Making my way trough walls of madness
I find you and no-one else…

Will you be able to run away?
Want to believe that all is real
Don’t want to wake up
Don’t want to breathe
Want to die and give up the ghost…

Solitude, always with you
By your side, you can’t decide
You want to leave
You can’t escape
But still believe…

Hiding those tears of hate
Forgive me for being to late
I can’t save you, you won’t see me…

Vanishing away,
Your eyes are screaming, crying and bleeding…
Why are you lost? Why can’t I save you?
I know where you are now
But I can’t keep you,
Maybe one day…

what lies within those eyes of ice

what lies within those eyes of ice
that vision of nice...
come, make it light tonight
come, bring hope in all this night...
come, take away that fear
come, I already see your tear..

Lost among all the lies
darkness is what sees in those cold eyes
you try yet u still cry
and you die...

Walking trough empty halls
you find nothing
and everything falls...

Still broken, you believe
and you know u wont leave
here you will stay
and that day won’t betray...

Howling in the hills of lies

i live in my own heaven
lying on this dead leaven
i wont stop this rave
as i'll wait to be saved

nothing can surfive
we'll all be together in the end
so dont pretend
i'll meet you there then

the sweet deadly poison
that you made me take
still runs down my vains
never to brake

alone you left me
alone i scream
why do you make me bleed?
if only you could see

a silent voice whispers
a lonely dark song
it will make it desapear
why must it take so long?

this memory which will stay
must follow its way
it wil be safe in me
as for it wont betray

"dont make it hard"
you begged...
you never imagened
how much it could hurt

my destiny ends like a rose
"once red, now black
once loved, now hated"
so i try not to look back

useless to fight this cursing light
make me believe you never would leave
i lie so i wont cry
but still i die

i hope you'r having fun
along each others side
you still look in the eye
but this time i decide

there's nothing i can do
now that its over
you were never mine
yet i am forever yours...
so let me cry on this cruel lie...

closing my eyes

Closing my eyes

To make you disappear

I wish upon the stars

To make you stay here

Yet you go and leave

So I cry these cold ice tears

I don’t wat to be alone

I just want your light

So please don’t leave me in night

So shoot the first stone

It’s to late to hate

To far from the star

To old as cold

To lain, my pain

Forgive me for trying

Why didn’t I see

It was only me dreaming

A dream, which ends up hurting…

I miss you

Oh, how I miss

Your touch, your smile

Miss how you used to hold me

How you used to love me…

It’s so hard to walk

This lonesome valley

With no one to talk

No one to love

Just like I did, love you

I cry these silent tears

How I wished they would disappear

How I wished to confront my fears

If only you were here…

My solitude walls

Are now stronger

As I walk through empty halls

My nightmare becomes me

And so I see…

But if you look back

Just remember, my love

That my days were never black

And my love came from above

Just remember…

Outside the hall

Confused all the way

I look up above

Wish to stay

My love, will betray

A great mystery

You are…

As you put me in and out of my misery

I’m dieing, crying, lying…

Can’t you hear me screaming?

I’m calling your name

I’m droning in my on tears

I’m still afraid to face my fears…

Caught me if I fall

Remain this love

If I’m already above

I’ll be waiting outside the hall…

were you ever mine?

Why did destiny

Give it to me

If it would take it back?

Why is happiness

Always on the other side?

Why can’t I be fearless

When it comes to loneliness?

How could you?

Were you ever mine?

How could I?

I loved you so…

Never sleep

Never die

Never dream

Never cry…

Will destiny

Bring you back?

Nothing More

A night to remember

A morning to forget

A memory to keep

A soul to be unleashed

Trying to forget

Trying not to regret

It hurts to think

It hurts to know

You don’t care

You almost never did

What was I?

Just a fly in the sky?

Or a rare bird

You pretended to have caught?

No, my unreal friend

I won’t cry for you again

No mercy no more

You’re my past and nothing more…

Fear of Lost

Why, why, why...

That’s the only question I can ask myself

I’m so scared that this is just a lie

It’s just for yourself...

My silent pain

Is still growing inside

Even though you’re beside

It hurts to know...

I try to understand

I try not to cry...

But this rebellious tear

Runs over my terrifying fear...

Will you remember me?

When you’re out of site

Will you still love me...?

The day you leave

It took so long to see
Destiny works slowly
But now you’re with me

Never thought you would leave
Never thought such thing
I know you care
It’s in my believe

Time is running
The day is almost coming
It will hurt, I know
But please don’t stop loving

They say if you love him
Set him free
Well, my Angel
I give you my wings
They’re useless for me
As I wont fly anymore...

Lonesome tear

I’m lying here all alone

Awaiting your touch

Why don’t you care?

Is this what you call done?

Each second that passes

I die even more

Don’t you think my heart you can tore

Because there’s nothing there anymore.

This hunger of desire

Which has blinded me

Has also killed me

It’s hard to walk away

My soul wants to stay

There’s nothing here

Just my lonesome tear...

You could

My name, you could find out

My mind, you can read

My hand, you can touch

My heart, you could brake

But my Soul, you never could take…

My legs walk to you

My eyes stare at you

My spirit flies to you

My harms rapt around you

But tonight I sing alone…

My Voice

This cursed destiny

We live in so painfully

Has come to an end

As my way comprehend

I invoke thee angels

Come my way

Look aside

Don’t betray

Pain and hate

Is more then late

Broken heart

Not even on start

Why is it so hard to see?

Why can’t they all just listen to me?

Stop this nonsense

And become comprehensive…

TO MY FATHER

Tender soul

Gentle companion

Since always

You’ve been by our side

Never in your days

You’ve left us aside…

We fight, we lie, we cry

Yet our family love will never die…

Brave sir, I say

Never leave, forever stay

Be here, near

So I won’t fear…

Compassioned father

We pray

For this to be

A blissful day…

Yours truly

Me, she, her

Your loving family…

My miracle is you...

Do you believe in miracles?

I do!

Do you believe that love has happy endings?

I don't!

Cause trut love never ends...

Do you think my love for you is an ilision?

Your wrong!

Cause all this time

and still I feel the same...

If my honesty was real

You would already know!

If you wanted to hurt me

I would already know...

your everything

Don’t be afraid,

Take my hand,

Let me take you

From this place

To beyond…

Don’t look away,

It won’t be that day.

The morning will come

And you’ll become…

Your soul stole mine.

Your spirit plays with mine.

But your heart isn’t!

I know, it’s true…

I won’t give up the fight.

I’ll put my trust beyond the shy!

If only I wasn’t shy…