Give up the ghost

Lost within you, lost among you
The path you drawn
I walk it, fearless
Making my way trough walls of madness
I find you and no-one else…

Will you be able to run away?
Want to believe that all is real
Don’t want to wake up
Don’t want to breathe
Want to die and give up the ghost…

Solitude, always with you
By your side, you can’t decide
You want to leave
You can’t escape
But still believe…

Hiding those tears of hate
Forgive me for being to late
I can’t save you, you won’t see me…

Vanishing away,
Your eyes are screaming, crying and bleeding…
Why are you lost? Why can’t I save you?
I know where you are now
But I can’t keep you,
Maybe one day…

what lies within those eyes of ice

what lies within those eyes of ice
that vision of nice...
come, make it light tonight
come, bring hope in all this night...
come, take away that fear
come, I already see your tear..

Lost among all the lies
darkness is what sees in those cold eyes
you try yet u still cry
and you die...

Walking trough empty halls
you find nothing
and everything falls...

Still broken, you believe
and you know u wont leave
here you will stay
and that day won’t betray...

Howling in the hills of lies

i live in my own heaven
lying on this dead leaven
i wont stop this rave
as i'll wait to be saved

nothing can surfive
we'll all be together in the end
so dont pretend
i'll meet you there then

the sweet deadly poison
that you made me take
still runs down my vains
never to brake

alone you left me
alone i scream
why do you make me bleed?
if only you could see

a silent voice whispers
a lonely dark song
it will make it desapear
why must it take so long?

this memory which will stay
must follow its way
it wil be safe in me
as for it wont betray

"dont make it hard"
you begged...
you never imagened
how much it could hurt

my destiny ends like a rose
"once red, now black
once loved, now hated"
so i try not to look back

useless to fight this cursing light
make me believe you never would leave
i lie so i wont cry
but still i die

i hope you'r having fun
along each others side
you still look in the eye
but this time i decide

there's nothing i can do
now that its over
you were never mine
yet i am forever yours...
so let me cry on this cruel lie...

closing my eyes

Closing my eyes

To make you disappear

I wish upon the stars

To make you stay here

Yet you go and leave

So I cry these cold ice tears

I don’t wat to be alone

I just want your light

So please don’t leave me in night

So shoot the first stone

It’s to late to hate

To far from the star

To old as cold

To lain, my pain

Forgive me for trying

Why didn’t I see

It was only me dreaming

A dream, which ends up hurting…

I miss you

Oh, how I miss

Your touch, your smile

Miss how you used to hold me

How you used to love me…

It’s so hard to walk

This lonesome valley

With no one to talk

No one to love

Just like I did, love you

I cry these silent tears

How I wished they would disappear

How I wished to confront my fears

If only you were here…

My solitude walls

Are now stronger

As I walk through empty halls

My nightmare becomes me

And so I see…

But if you look back

Just remember, my love

That my days were never black

And my love came from above

Just remember…

Outside the hall

Confused all the way

I look up above

Wish to stay

My love, will betray

A great mystery

You are…

As you put me in and out of my misery

I’m dieing, crying, lying…

Can’t you hear me screaming?

I’m calling your name

I’m droning in my on tears

I’m still afraid to face my fears…

Caught me if I fall

Remain this love

If I’m already above

I’ll be waiting outside the hall…

were you ever mine?

Why did destiny

Give it to me

If it would take it back?

Why is happiness

Always on the other side?

Why can’t I be fearless

When it comes to loneliness?

How could you?

Were you ever mine?

How could I?

I loved you so…

Never sleep

Never die

Never dream

Never cry…

Will destiny

Bring you back?

Nothing More

A night to remember

A morning to forget

A memory to keep

A soul to be unleashed

Trying to forget

Trying not to regret

It hurts to think

It hurts to know

You don’t care

You almost never did

What was I?

Just a fly in the sky?

Or a rare bird

You pretended to have caught?

No, my unreal friend

I won’t cry for you again

No mercy no more

You’re my past and nothing more…

Fear of Lost

Why, why, why...

That’s the only question I can ask myself

I’m so scared that this is just a lie

It’s just for yourself...

My silent pain

Is still growing inside

Even though you’re beside

It hurts to know...

I try to understand

I try not to cry...

But this rebellious tear

Runs over my terrifying fear...

Will you remember me?

When you’re out of site

Will you still love me...?

The day you leave

It took so long to see
Destiny works slowly
But now you’re with me

Never thought you would leave
Never thought such thing
I know you care
It’s in my believe

Time is running
The day is almost coming
It will hurt, I know
But please don’t stop loving

They say if you love him
Set him free
Well, my Angel
I give you my wings
They’re useless for me
As I wont fly anymore...

Lonesome tear

I’m lying here all alone

Awaiting your touch

Why don’t you care?

Is this what you call done?

Each second that passes

I die even more

Don’t you think my heart you can tore

Because there’s nothing there anymore.

This hunger of desire

Which has blinded me

Has also killed me

It’s hard to walk away

My soul wants to stay

There’s nothing here

Just my lonesome tear...

You could

My name, you could find out

My mind, you can read

My hand, you can touch

My heart, you could brake

But my Soul, you never could take…

My legs walk to you

My eyes stare at you

My spirit flies to you

My harms rapt around you

But tonight I sing alone…

My Voice

This cursed destiny

We live in so painfully

Has come to an end

As my way comprehend

I invoke thee angels

Come my way

Look aside

Don’t betray

Pain and hate

Is more then late

Broken heart

Not even on start

Why is it so hard to see?

Why can’t they all just listen to me?

Stop this nonsense

And become comprehensive…

TO MY FATHER

Tender soul

Gentle companion

Since always

You’ve been by our side

Never in your days

You’ve left us aside…

We fight, we lie, we cry

Yet our family love will never die…

Brave sir, I say

Never leave, forever stay

Be here, near

So I won’t fear…

Compassioned father

We pray

For this to be

A blissful day…

Yours truly

Me, she, her

Your loving family…

My miracle is you...

Do you believe in miracles?

I do!

Do you believe that love has happy endings?

I don't!

Cause trut love never ends...

Do you think my love for you is an ilision?

Your wrong!

Cause all this time

and still I feel the same...

If my honesty was real

You would already know!

If you wanted to hurt me

I would already know...

your everything

Don’t be afraid,

Take my hand,

Let me take you

From this place

To beyond…

Don’t look away,

It won’t be that day.

The morning will come

And you’ll become…

Your soul stole mine.

Your spirit plays with mine.

But your heart isn’t!

I know, it’s true…

I won’t give up the fight.

I’ll put my trust beyond the shy!

If only I wasn’t shy…

They can't see

They can’t see

What I see inside.

They won’t play

That one way…

I know, I feel,

I understand.

I’m too late

Too late to be…

Near, warm as fire.

Far, ice cold.

Close, thunder light.

Distance, dark night.

May I ask?

May I hope?

May this be?

The way I dreamt?

Too much?

Just a chance.

A dream will grow,

A dream will become.

If I keep

My eyes closed,

So that your image

Won’t flow away…

I still Hope...

I hate to think about

The chance I had and lost…

I hate to know you could

Be mine not hers…

The summer has past

And still I feel the same…

Why can’t you see it?

Why can’t it be that way?

Time goes by

And everything’s the same…

Your still beside me

Or am I delusion?

So hear me out

Perfection’s child

Don’t change, don’t leave

Stay and you’ll be free…

Closeness without end

Dear angel
Dear friend
We met in innocence
You stood beside me
Always…

We fight, we shout, we cry
But our friendship
Will never die…

So to the eternity
Side by side, we stand…

I want to make sure you know
That I’m grateful for all you did
And everything you still do now…

I know that deep down inside
I haven’t always been there
I haven’t been the greatest friend
But still, you never left me down…
I’m sorry if I hurt you
I’m sorry if alone I left you…

Remember, Eduarda
I will always be your friend
And I’ll be here for you until the end of time…
As one we will go on fighting
Trough the days of obscurity
Trough the days of clarity…

Meaning of a dream

Has I fall asleep
My dreams start to rise
My hope grows
My pain flows away

I see a red rose
So tender, so beautiful
I can’t resist a touch
But I forget that
Roses have thorns
And I began to bleed

Why is something
So pretty be so painful
Something so small
Be something so big

Blood red rose
In my dreams
Next to you
What does this mean?

In the dark

And so I thought

That we could be

One like a soul

One like the sea

In distance, I write

From my solitude of night

My heart haves decided

I will not forget

I will fight for his love

And will see no other

For he’s my wings

That I use

And won’t fall in darkness

The hard part

Is to show

What’s inside...

But is my secret a secret?

Or does he already know?

Am I Lost

Prisoner by time
Talk less by feelings
Not even the comfort
Of your mother can help!

Secret or no secret
Does he know?
Couldn’t he see
What I see inside of me

The distance we keep
From one another
Isn’t big
But the distance of thought
Is big enough for my hopes
To fall…

the secret i hold inside

you may not see
you may not notice
the truth i hold inside
the truth i see in you eyes...

ive been caught
by your beauty
trough your touch
your smile...

im to weak to say
to shy to show
but trough here
i will tell you
"your the only one i see
your the one in my dreams"

and if im wrong
please dont leave
just forget this day
this moment i stould from you life
promise never to tell
and everything will be okay...

as the rain falls down

as the rain falls down
as one soul begans
to rise
a new creature bigens
to revile...

surfiving is hard
and it may hurt
for sometimes happyness
is never a bless
and love is never the
reward we await...

in time, you will learn
that being in dark
will not save you
and you wont be saved
by none...

They are here...

when angels faced the earth
it wasnt just another look
for this angels have spot you
an forever now protect you.

they see it all inside
and want to make it all better
cus when you were alone
your heart broke
in tiny little pieces
that now are impossible to fing.

this angels wont cry
this angels wont lie
for truth is there life
and love is there world...

Back to Black

thinking i've been saved
i've only fallen more and more
in the dark night
of my soltude thought

all the hope
i had inside
all the love
i had to give
has frozen
in ice cold
waiting to be infrized
by the one
who doesnt know

the one in my dreams
the one who made in all bright

deep inside, there's a voice
guiding and advicing me
teeling me to wait,
for the one, will see
and then deside...

Questions

life scares me
heart confuses me
mind screams at me
body desobeys me
what do i have to do
to stop being affraid?
to stop being always confused?
to fall in silence?
to be in control?
is it to much to ask?
must i sufer
for all eternety?
to many questions
have been asked
its not right
for one to know all
but to all to know one
its not the end
we fear
its the start
so lets pass this part
but pass it together
as one...

Dream or Nightmare

you try
but you always lie
and she wont cry

shes falling
falling deep
she needs you
your her wings

you realy dont notice
she knows
but everyone says
you do
who do i believe?
my mind or them?

i hope this becames
a dream
where everything is beautiful
and loved, not
a nightmare
where she keeps
falling but this time
only in darkness...

How can i win his heart

How can i win his heart
If im to shy
How can i make him see me in light
If im always in dark night
Do i wait longer for him to find me?
And will he ever...

I wish i had an Angel

I wish i had an Angel

to care for

to truth...

this angel would be

just like the ocean

strong yet gracefull

tenderlly and carefull

its wings would protect me

for all given evil

beside this angel

i would feel warm

and safe

this angel would

say no lies

this angel wouldnt

promise the impossible

but first of all

this angel would notice me

and forever love me

what im saying it that

i dont need an angel

i just want YOU...

Loneliness in Darkness

Since i came
i always knew.
different i am
strange NEVER...
this illusion of happyness
as started to blind me.
i thought everything could change
it almost did...
can i truth?
can i believe?
why?
dont leave...
steap by steap
i surfive....
am i that different
that i cant even
deside my destiny?
what is my destiny?
there was no one there
to be my wings.
so i fall in darkness...
will i ever see light in this night?
the light of reason and love?...

Seperated By Destiny?

Meet with no notice
long talks with didnt have.
give it time
and friends we've become.
everything we did
we did it together.
shared everything with one another
but then we grew...
the time has come
just one choise
one path...
is ur river of friendship
gone dry?
or this just made
it stronger?
from this day on...
we choose.
remain or seperate?
is this are destiny?...

My Strange Angel

when i sing
he comes...
his there, i can feel him close...
i feel scared
yet warm...
i dream one day
that i could see him
touch him truths him...
when he wants to show
his here
he shows it with
a dead light
or with a laugh...
i start to panic
but still i want to stay...
will i ever stand face to face
with him...
with my stange angel?
with my guardian angel?
with my unseen friend?...

What have I done?

When she told me,
I couldn't believe.
For the first time,
She opened her
Heart to me.
She told me,
What she was feeling.
I supported her,
I pushed her,
I almost demanded,
For her to hear her heart,
Has she never did before.
She truthed me,
For the tast of asking.
I went with no fear.
I questioned and demanded
an answer.
And there I knew.
Onces came brave,
Now goes scared.
This evil truth,
Drives me crazy.
To tell? To tell her not?
I've decided.
She neaded to know.
Gentle, small tears,
Came running down
Her face.
She already knew it,
But inside, she didn't.
Seeing her like that,
I realized what I've done.
I've played with the feelings
of a friend,
Like a game or movie.
"What have I done?" I asked.
Was it wrong to tell?
Was it wrong to try to help?...

Fooling them or fooling me?

Nervously I past every day,
Thinking and thinking.
I fool the world,
Like nothing's wrong.
But to my self i cannot lie.
Trying to forget,
Trying to move along.
Bbut i just can't,
I can't without knowing.
Every day i pray,
And wish,
For you to notice me,
For you to see me,
More then a friend.
But am I just fooling myself?
Do I have hope?
Or is it my heart,
playing tricks on my mind?...

Affraid of the truth

You came in my life,
Gently and fast,
Like the wind,
Passing your face.
First I didn't know,
But konw I notice.
My mind says one thing,
My heart screams another.
I know when your close,
My heart starts to beat
faster and faster.
I feel scared, confused,
nerveus and warm.
But the worse of this all,
Is being affraid to be
the only one having these feelings...

Wishing you where here

Miss you, I do!

Pain, I feel!

Stay, I begged!

Gone, you were...

Hurts to think

of you.

Hurts to know

you there

not here...

I love,

Love you lots...

Please promise me

we will be together

never go away...

we almost dont talk

far from each other

we pray...

every night

i look at the stars

and think of you

your laugh, your dreams,

your hope, your evrything...

Tears star to fall

and inside hurts!

nobody can undersnd,

nobody,

just you and I...